UnOfficial Statement of Purpose

Disclaimer:
The following document is a joke. I'm not (totally) serious about this and I would never really submit this as part of my graduate school application. Then again, there is a scary amount of truth to it... =)

I entered the University of California, Riverside sometime in 1992 foolishly believing I was here to educate myself under the now silly notion, ``Hey, if I get a degree, I'll be able to get a job!''

Of course, I quickly learned that the University lifestyle had nothing to do with education and everything to do with getting a date. Unfortunately, I found it difficult to acquire such a thing as a ``date'' in the Department of Computer Science and proceeded to explore my options elsewhere, most notably the Department of Creative Writing. It was there I believed I could try out the ``90's Guy'' thing and pick up on chicks.

Reality hit sometime during my second writing course when I came to the conclusion that every woman in the program was either a grandmother or violently neurotic. This was obviously unacceptable.

The lack of success in finding a date in the Dept. of Creative Writing did not deter me, however. I continued forth in other areas of the University whilst learning the wondrous details of Computer Science in the background. But then something drastic happened...

At first, I was confused. Then I was excited. Then I was confused again. However I felt about it, I knew what it was and what it meant. The World Wide Web.

Suddenly, it was cool to be a Web-Geek.

And I was successfully duped.

I designed my first homepage thinking, ``Hey, when all the chicks see this, they'll come running after me! I might even have two dates!'' I was so enthralled with the idea I invested a substantial amount of time and effort into my homepage's design. I made it possible for every visitor to leave with something new and exciting. Something they would cherish for the remainder of their Netscape cache. And most importantly, chicks would think is really cool.

The first month my page was up, I received a few sporadic e-mails from people commenting on my homepage's design. To my dissapointment, none of them were female. It was then I realized my page lacked something every woman desired...

CGI scripts.

And so my quest began...

At first, they were simple creations which did little things such as update the current date and time, or make it possible to see if I was logged in. But those scripts were trivial and too many other schmoes on the net them as well. I had to be original if I ever planned on acquiring a chick this way.

My next two book purchases had nothing to do with Star Trek to my book club's surprise. They were O'Reilly and Associate's powerhouse programming texts on Perl and AWK. I devoured them like a frat-boy and his first keg of beer.

Little by little, my scripts added the kind of functionality that everyone would envy. Search engines indexing my life story. Rotating pictures of me doing everything from installing an electrical outlet to compiling the latest release of the Apache Web Server. Buttons which would automatically appear at the end of every page making it easy for the chicks to contact me and arrange a date on-line. Short of balacing the Federal Budget, my scripts did everything...

And I still wasn't getting e-mail from chicks.

This, suffice it to say, was leaving me worried.

I decided to contract a graphic artist to redo my site and make it more appealing to women. I used clickable images to make navigation a snap. I rewrote my autobiography and indexed it over 10,310 keywords. Suddenly, it was trivial to learn everything about me, from the color of my favorite underwear to my preferred speaker wire. And, I managed to keep response time to under 1 second.

Still, no women.

It then occurred to me while muching on twinkies and watching Baywatch that there was one notable element that women seemed to desire (aside from personality and a well built body). MONEY. But how was a college student trying to pass Ordinary Differential Equations supposed to find a job that pays a decent salary?

Then I got the e-mail.

And, no, it wasn't from a chick.

A corporate type saw my site and thought it was the neatest thing since Playboy went online. The scripts, the graphics, the layout, everything. The next thing I knew I was working for his company designing a web page at $40/hr. After all, money equated to chicks. How could I refuse?

This company didn't want anything fancy, but by the time I was done with them they not only had a Pointcast Top 5% of the Web kind of site, they had chicks calling their headquarters day and night. I knew I had something going there and even left a link from their site to mine so the chicks knew who the real man was behind the work.

Never got an e-mail from that.

Thinking about it, I realized that one-time jobs wasn't all that great. I needed something more reliable, something which kept the funds coming in so I could impress women by buying things such as my own domain. I bit the bullet and went into business doing Web design. $60/hr and I'd design anything under the sun. Cool scripts, cute widgets, everything. I'd design sites that other sites would use as a basis for their site.

And I made some pretty stylish bucks doing it.

Still didn't get a date.

Now I was going all out. I was making the bucks. I had a Bad-Ass(tm) homepage. I had it all... Yet, something felt wrong about it. My education in Computer Science, my web programming, something seemed to conflict. I couldn't quite put my finger on it at first, but it slowly came to be after having done several sites -- I didn't like web programming.

The truth of the matter started to come out of me, and it wasn't very pleasant. I was doing it for the money and showing ``it'' to the world. I was a programming prostitute, selling my coding soul for cheap pleasures.

And I never got a chick in the process...

I'm almost at the point of graduating. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't stop the web programming because its the thing I know best. It's what will pay me, and allow me the opportunity to meet chicks in Public Relations. But I'm not that big of a fool either -- I can see my future in this. For the day will come that the Web and Web Programmers will become the old-hat and undesired by the new generation. I will be left in the cold, hungry for attention, and writing COBOL applications for accountants who think Disco is the rage. I will die a has-been, left sitting behind a Wyse terminal at a VMS prompt...

Salvation from this hell, you see, is why I want to go to Graduate School.



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